i was reading old messages and saving them on myspace.
and i blatantly called him sunshine more than once.
which hurts, because i remember the day nina was telling me,
"and i call him sunshine, because he seriously just brightens up my entire life.
he was like 'hmm? sunshine? i've never been called that before' and i was like,
well you brighten up my life so much (:"
haha. :|
Friday, June 19, 2009
=|
i could swear i'm sleeping less and less
the ocean's getting warmer, and california's on her mind.
i think about you all the time, i wonder what you're doing.
i wonder why you never cry.
you don't have to call any more.
don't want to hurt any more.
you might think i'm bulletproof, but i'm not.
and i need you like a heartbeat.
i told you i'm not bulletproof. now you know.
kiss me like you mean it. like you miss me.
i'm not gonna lie. i've been a mess.
i'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet.
this ain't hollywood. this is a small town.
i was a dreamer, before you went and let me down.
don't mind me, if i get weak in the knees. 'cause you have that effect on me.
i could drive, and you could sleep. while the radio collides to the sound of our heartbeats.
the city looks so pretty, do you wanna burn it with me?
my insecurities could eat me alive.
i'm here without you, but you're still on my lonely mind.
your arms feel like home.
your voice was the soundtrack of my summer. do you know you're unlike any other?
so tell me how do i breathe; how do i deal without you?
four in the morning and the tears are pouring. and i wanna make it worth the fight.
god i wish you could hold me, through the seven days of lonely.
i still miss you.
i'm gonna be alright.
when you flash up on my phone, i no longer feel alone.
how do i breathe, without you here by my side?
if you knew i cared, you'd have never went anywhere.
you should let me be the one to give you everything you want and need.
i miss the sound of your voice.
if i could walk on water, if i could tell you what's next...
make you believe, make you forget.
no matter what i do, all i think about is you.
you don't know what you mean to me.
it's all in my head, i think about it over and over again.
it hurts so bad.
i miss you. far away for far too long.
i keep dreaming: you'll be with me and you'll never go. stop breathing if i don't see you anymore.
with you, i'd withstand all of hell to hold your hand.
how the hell we'd wind up like this?
someday, somehow. i'm gonna make it alright.
now the story's played out like this. just like a paperback novel.
let's rewrite an ending that fits? instead of a hollywood horror.
you're like my favorite damn disease.
i think i need a bottle with a genie in it.
if i had one wish, i'd make you my whole life.
i'm not like any other girl you know.
i'm wearing my heart on my sleeve. it's cliche, i know. but baby, it's the price we pay. to get the things we've wanted.
don't take another step, don't breathe another breath. unless you're coming back to me.
will you just hold me tight and never let me go?
i know this whole thing's wrong.
if i could take your heart, and keep it close to me. i swear it will not break. i swear it will not bleed.
my heart's open. for you.
tonight will be the night that i will fall for you, over again.
remember me tonight, when you're asleep.
we don't need anything, or anyone.
let's waste time.
if i lay here. if i just lay here. would you lie with me, and just forget the world?
it's your ability to make me earn this.
just let me sing you to sleep?
it's about how you laugh out of pity. 'cause let's be honest, i'm not really that funny.
if you need anything, just say the word. i mean anything.
it's your finger, and how i'm wrapped around it.
it's your grace, and how it keeps me grounded.
i was constructed for you, and you were molded for me.
now i feel your name, coursing through my veins.
you shine so bright, it's insane. you put the sun to shame.
how long i'll wait, just to say goodbye.
you could never let me in. holding on until the end.
the time i waste, just to say goodbye.
can't see you anymore, won't feel you anymore.
how long i'll stay, just to say goodbye.
summer's getting colder. drive all night, to hold you tight. back to california.
i guess we're getting older. we couldn't win in the end. you're gone.
are you wondering why this is happening? well, i am listening to my heart. speaking faster than ever before.
i got lost in the nighttime sky.
i miss you more every night. i feel like wasting my time.
i keep wondering why this is happening.
what's meant to be will always find a way.
i'd be lost if i lost you.
how do i live without you?
i want to know.
how do i breathe without you?
how do i ever, ever survive?
how do i, how do i, oh how do i, live?
"and if you don't like me. i'll kill you. JUSTSAYING."
"hahaha. NO PRESSURE."
":D"
:|
the ocean's getting warmer, and california's on her mind.
i think about you all the time, i wonder what you're doing.
i wonder why you never cry.
you don't have to call any more.
don't want to hurt any more.
you might think i'm bulletproof, but i'm not.
and i need you like a heartbeat.
i told you i'm not bulletproof. now you know.
kiss me like you mean it. like you miss me.
i'm not gonna lie. i've been a mess.
i'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet.
this ain't hollywood. this is a small town.
i was a dreamer, before you went and let me down.
don't mind me, if i get weak in the knees. 'cause you have that effect on me.
i could drive, and you could sleep. while the radio collides to the sound of our heartbeats.
the city looks so pretty, do you wanna burn it with me?
my insecurities could eat me alive.
i'm here without you, but you're still on my lonely mind.
your arms feel like home.
your voice was the soundtrack of my summer. do you know you're unlike any other?
so tell me how do i breathe; how do i deal without you?
four in the morning and the tears are pouring. and i wanna make it worth the fight.
god i wish you could hold me, through the seven days of lonely.
i still miss you.
i'm gonna be alright.
when you flash up on my phone, i no longer feel alone.
how do i breathe, without you here by my side?
if you knew i cared, you'd have never went anywhere.
you should let me be the one to give you everything you want and need.
i miss the sound of your voice.
if i could walk on water, if i could tell you what's next...
make you believe, make you forget.
no matter what i do, all i think about is you.
you don't know what you mean to me.
it's all in my head, i think about it over and over again.
it hurts so bad.
i miss you. far away for far too long.
i keep dreaming: you'll be with me and you'll never go. stop breathing if i don't see you anymore.
with you, i'd withstand all of hell to hold your hand.
how the hell we'd wind up like this?
someday, somehow. i'm gonna make it alright.
now the story's played out like this. just like a paperback novel.
let's rewrite an ending that fits? instead of a hollywood horror.
you're like my favorite damn disease.
i think i need a bottle with a genie in it.
if i had one wish, i'd make you my whole life.
i'm not like any other girl you know.
i'm wearing my heart on my sleeve. it's cliche, i know. but baby, it's the price we pay. to get the things we've wanted.
don't take another step, don't breathe another breath. unless you're coming back to me.
will you just hold me tight and never let me go?
i know this whole thing's wrong.
if i could take your heart, and keep it close to me. i swear it will not break. i swear it will not bleed.
my heart's open. for you.
tonight will be the night that i will fall for you, over again.
remember me tonight, when you're asleep.
we don't need anything, or anyone.
let's waste time.
if i lay here. if i just lay here. would you lie with me, and just forget the world?
it's your ability to make me earn this.
just let me sing you to sleep?
it's about how you laugh out of pity. 'cause let's be honest, i'm not really that funny.
if you need anything, just say the word. i mean anything.
it's your finger, and how i'm wrapped around it.
it's your grace, and how it keeps me grounded.
i was constructed for you, and you were molded for me.
now i feel your name, coursing through my veins.
you shine so bright, it's insane. you put the sun to shame.
how long i'll wait, just to say goodbye.
you could never let me in. holding on until the end.
the time i waste, just to say goodbye.
can't see you anymore, won't feel you anymore.
how long i'll stay, just to say goodbye.
summer's getting colder. drive all night, to hold you tight. back to california.
i guess we're getting older. we couldn't win in the end. you're gone.
are you wondering why this is happening? well, i am listening to my heart. speaking faster than ever before.
i got lost in the nighttime sky.
i miss you more every night. i feel like wasting my time.
i keep wondering why this is happening.
what's meant to be will always find a way.
i'd be lost if i lost you.
how do i live without you?
i want to know.
how do i breathe without you?
how do i ever, ever survive?
how do i, how do i, oh how do i, live?
"and if you don't like me. i'll kill you. JUSTSAYING."
"hahaha. NO PRESSURE."
":D"
:|
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
6 days
Six days without a post. Wow.
Millvina Dean died =(
That's sad, it's like, the end of an era. She's died, and now so has the last of the Titanic legacy. It feels as if everything about it will be forgotten now. :/
Jake's logging on Thursday, so yeah. I'm waiting.
I updated everything I have. myspace/twitter/facebook/stickam/tumblr/etc.
I dozed off around 9PM, and had a dream this crazy ass bitch was trying to fucking attack me and kill me, so I woke up around two and haven't went back to bed.
I created a tumblr, it's www.malloryy.tumblr.com
[:
Uhm, also, the stonehenge. Amazing theory.
Ready?
What if they lined it up with certain solar instances. Such as, the sun rising, the sun setting, the summer / winter solstice points, and, the spring/autumn equinox? And it's not as if they /knew/ that the eclipses only happen once every -insert number- years. So I mean, they could've lined some stones up with one of those. I haven't done all my research on this one, as you can probably tell. :/
I'm very scatterbrained, especially at night. I wanted to redo my myspace but I don't feel like it.
I also bought a bathing suit and a purse.
I need to have my roots touched up soon.
There was something else I had thought about, but I can't remember what it was.
D:
I guess I'll make a post when I remember.
Whatever,
my brain's going at 15548493830457403483029487504 miles per hour, but its not thinking anything important.
Sideeffect of being up all night?
Heh. I think so.
Millvina Dean died =(
That's sad, it's like, the end of an era. She's died, and now so has the last of the Titanic legacy. It feels as if everything about it will be forgotten now. :/
Jake's logging on Thursday, so yeah. I'm waiting.
I updated everything I have. myspace/twitter/facebook/stickam/tumblr/etc.
I dozed off around 9PM, and had a dream this crazy ass bitch was trying to fucking attack me and kill me, so I woke up around two and haven't went back to bed.
I created a tumblr, it's www.malloryy.tumblr.com
[:
Uhm, also, the stonehenge. Amazing theory.
Ready?
What if they lined it up with certain solar instances. Such as, the sun rising, the sun setting, the summer / winter solstice points, and, the spring/autumn equinox? And it's not as if they /knew/ that the eclipses only happen once every -insert number- years. So I mean, they could've lined some stones up with one of those. I haven't done all my research on this one, as you can probably tell. :/
I'm very scatterbrained, especially at night. I wanted to redo my myspace but I don't feel like it.
I also bought a bathing suit and a purse.
I need to have my roots touched up soon.
There was something else I had thought about, but I can't remember what it was.
D:
I guess I'll make a post when I remember.
Whatever,
my brain's going at 15548493830457403483029487504 miles per hour, but its not thinking anything important.
Sideeffect of being up all night?
Heh. I think so.
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